Don't you hate it when you're in a bad mood for no good reason? Of course, having a reason when you're in a bad mood doesn't even mean its a good reason. Generally it's just a ridiculous something that you're holding onto and growing into something huge. I'm probably the most talented blower-out-of-proportion-er ever. I can always manage to get mad for no reason at all and stay that way for a long time, always convinced that I'm justified in my anger.

Today, I'm pretty sure it all started when I woke up after a series of very depressing dreams. From the moment I woke up I just wanted to go back to sleep and try again. Sometimes when I first wake up I can't separate my reality from my dreams. My emotions get so wrapped up in what was happening. I felt desperate and depressed from the moment I opened my eyes. And then after that I let every little thing get to me. I know I could manage to change it, but when I'm feeling crappy I don't want to change it. I just want to brood. And I am a master brooder.